♥ FEATURED
MUSIC IS LIFE.
WILL BE BACK. (:
♥ Wednesday, December 31, 2008
and i still feel your presence.
Singer: Show Luo (罗志祥)
Title: 搞笑 (Joking Around)
mr. L, i miss you.
Lyrics:
那一條牙膏 在對我傻笑
as if the toothpaste is laughing at me
嘲笑我永遠用不掉
mocking that i could never get rid of him
想睡就睡 想鬧就鬧
he sleeps & have fun whenever it wants
好快樂少了人嘮叨
with one person lesser to bother him
藍色的碗盤 多買了一套
i bought an extra set of dinerware
我忘了沒人陪我通宵
forgetting that nobody will be here with me
要多少替代的丑角 無辜的陪笑
and how many times i have to pretend i was happy
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好
before i could forget all about you
*我在搞笑 藉著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
i joke around & have fun, covering up my broken heart
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
i cry & laugh, pretending i love being alone
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉
and when everyone left, i feel like i could just die
我受不了
i cant take it anymore
還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
still joking around, i dont know how to get through the night without you
這麼多年 早就習慣 有你的撒嬌
so many years, ive gotten used to having you with me
我想我能熬 但是至少要讓我知道 你好不好
i think i get through this, and all i need to know is, you're fine
我們的小狗 食量變好小
our dog has lost his appetite
眼神裡常常顯得無聊
his eyes often shows boredom
牠習慣睡覺的床尾 少了一雙腳
and the bed end where he used to sleep, was missing a pair of feet
所以牠常常看著門口睡不著
so he always stares at door, refusing to sleep
Repeat*
我在搞笑 卻在醉後 眼淚拼命飆
i joke around, but i couldnt control my tears when i got drunk
你的離開 失去多少 我計算不了
i cant calculate how much i lost after you left
忙完了一天 突然覺得又何必辛勞
after a day's work, i have no idea why i work so hard
對誰炫耀？
who do i show it to?
還在搞笑 是否擁有 麻痺的療效
still joking around, dont know if it can take my pain away
唱一夜歌 卻避不開 催淚的曲調
singing the whole night, but still i cant avoid all the sad songs
我徹夜胡鬧 希望聽到有人會提到 你好不好
i hang out all night, hoping to someone would tell me, you're fine
Labels: ):, music
loved; 11:55 AM
♥
are you really listening to me?
unhappy issue 1:
i feel like all my assignments & work are an individual effort.
like im fighting the war on my own,
and no one else is there for me.
like the whole world, there's only me
who worries, who cares.
i dont know what my role is anymore,
not just my projects,
but also my role as vice president.
i dont need people who come telling me,
"you know what, you're the best vice president i have."
"press on, we couldn't do it without you."
if i was ever important,
i dont see why i should be feeling this way right now.
nobody replies,
nobody worries,
nobody cares.
i know you saw my message,
i know you didnt want to reply,
i know what your answer is,
and i know i failed my role, again.
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unhappy issue 2:
to mr j,
i guess you still dont know why you couldnt get the girl of your dream.
trying to convey the message,
you adore her, you have a crush on her, you like her, you're in love with her.
all these does nothing at all!
and what you should have really done,
are things you have never ever done.
you thought you showed you care,
but if you cared,
she wouldnt have to go through all that she is feeling,
and the reason is you.
but you never realised that,
you only thought this is a good opportunity to be there,
that is how you could show you care.
you're so wrong.
even if you read this,
and realise the girl is no longer who you're looking for,
i think this is all worthwhile.
Labels: ):, bacomm, friends, school
loved; 11:43 AM
♥ Monday, December 29, 2008
to my dearests
hey friends,
i have been & will continue to be away from anything related to the computer.
so you wont be able to find me on msn & my blog,
so do contact me by phone if it's important.
if it's not,
i do check my email every now & then too (:
Labels: notice
loved; 12:06 PM
♥
please make me happy.
met up with
beatty clique yesterday (:
like finally, i think everyone is present.
FOR ONCE!(xuli, charmaine, jolene, guankai, nicholas, bala, shunli, leonardi, jerrold & wendy)went to
gelare for icecream,
which was irritating when the flavors i want are
ALL not available,
then why put it on the menu?
then sat around outside
cinema @ lido/shaw to chat about all the
stupid things.
those memories of secondary school :D
and went to watch
bedtime stories after
charmaine left.
it was those
fairytale-happily-ever-after kind of movie once again.
met jolene for dinner @
paragon spageddies after
leonardi, nicholas, jerrold & wendy left.
i have 3 kinds of
cheeeeeese in my pasta,
to shunli: it's better than your
lasagne, copycat!
when i got home, i have smell of many kinds of
cologne!
ew.
we were
HELPING xuli shop for men's cologne.
oh, and
bala has been an
idiot the whole day,
HAHAHAH.
finally, a day away from school stress...Labels: beattyclique, friends, outing
loved; 12:00 PM
♥ Wednesday, December 24, 2008
dont underestimate & pretend you know someone well (:
王力宏-我完全没有任何理由理你
Wang Lee Hom - Wo Wan Quan Mei You Ren He Li You Li Ni (I Can't Be Bothered With You At All)
this is the radio version when leehom is having the interview.
i so love this song :DDD
it was rumoured that he wrote this song for this songwriter/judge,
who had commented publicly that leehom had stolen songs making them his own.
i love this because there's some people i cant be bothered with,
so this is to you (:
if you love it, look out for my asian playlist on the left.
Labels: music
loved; 5:58 PM
♥ Saturday, December 20, 2008
shine like a star.
okay, call me slow.
i just found out that the results for
heygorgeous were out!
ferynn is now miss ngee ann polytechnic (((:
CONGRATULATIONS!im proud of you, keep it up :D
well, i do think she has the chance of winning
yesyes.
Labels: heygorgeous
loved; 5:01 PM
♥ Wednesday, December 17, 2008
what's left are just memories & regrets
there's 2 persons im missing so so so much, right now.
so much that it almost felt like im in love all over again,
those were the times.
quit guessing,
cos it's not someone you know, at least for most people.
it's not even open relationships,
it's all so ambiguous.
that if i were to explain,
the story can go on for at least one day one night.
i dont understand what i am feeling,
and i dont understand why i was once in love with them.
the 2 persons i can say.
nobody has replaced, yet.
they are everything i dont look for in a guy,
they are the totally opposite of who i am,
we are worlds apart.
hey you,
i still miss you every now & then.
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想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
you were mad at me, but i dont want to quarrel anymore
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
and i didnt know how to apologise
好想要回到我们的原点
all i want was for us to return to where we started
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
you were crying again, and i didnt know the right words to say
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
i shook my head again, feeling a bit of regrets
爱情的发展已难以回头 却无法往前走
our love has got no turning back, and it ends here
但身不由己出现在胸口
all the unwillingness bottled up
两颗心能塞几个问号
how many doubts to love can our hearts contain
爱让我们流多少眼泪
and how many tears have we cried
你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳
your eyes are so beautiful, that it took my heartbeat away
你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳
your gentle touch took my heartbeat away
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
if i were to turn back time, can i have another chance
等着哪一天你也想起
until the day you remember
那悬在记忆中的美好
all the good memories
Labels: love
loved; 4:39 PM
♥ Tuesday, December 16, 2008
a part of me revealed.
i know i said i dont watch locally produced dramas,
but this really popular one now,
caught my attention.
"little nonya" (:
not much people know,
but i do have a little peranakan background.
and im really proud of it.
im glad mediacorp filmed the show,
to let many people know more about the life of peranakan.
(especially people who dont even know it exist!)
and today i went for lunch at a peranakan cuisine restaurant,
the food was superb!
asam buak keluak, beef rendang, nonya chap chye, sambal kangkong, chendol, gula melaka sago, bubuh terigu :DDD
and right beside me now, is all the different kinds of kuih.
anyone who is interested to try peranakan cuisine could look for me,
it's affordable & authentic (:
Labels: drama, food, peranakan
loved; 2:39 PM
♥ Monday, December 15, 2008
the world and you.
once, i told a lie.
a small one,
one that i know many people have used it on me before.
then i was super guilty the entire day,
and i wonder why.
all the weird thoughts,
and worrying of being exposed.
i thought hard,
how did my friends feel nothing?
then i ran through my past,
it's not possible that i have never told a lie.
i doubt you would believe either.
then suddenly, i realise the difference.
it was a lie i told for myself,
and this was one lie different from the rest.
i thought back what was those things i would lie about.
those lies back then,
were told for the sake of others.
and so i realise,
how much i have been living for others
and thinking in people's perceptions,
putting myself in people's shoes.
which i doubt happen a lot these days,
because apparently i dont get those treatments.
someone once told me,
everyone tends to self centered.
i didnt believe her,
but she seem to be proud of the fact.
to me,
i think it's really something that do happen A LOT (at least to me),
but really to be ashamed of.
really,
is there anyone in the world close to selfless?
just close, not fully.
or is this the cruel human nature?
this is one thing that will keep me thinking for awhile,
find me weird, i dont care.
there's much more things in this world,
which some of us might never see.
why?
because we only think in our own perception,
which is somewhat self centered.
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i wouldnt say im not self centered,
but maybe my definition of it is different.
you try not to neglect people's feelings,
try as much as you can to think in people's position.
but being self centered,
you just jump into your own conclusion.
you make decision on your own accord.
you can say it just slipped of your mind,
but isnt that the thing that counts?
i think if you geniunely thinks for someone,
the person wouldnt be forgotten just like that.
Labels: people, perception
loved; 11:35 AM
♥ Friday, December 12, 2008
you drive me crazy, negatively.
current mood: not very happy.
yeah, it's been quite a long while since ive last updated.
dont misunderstand,
im not THAT hardworking,
and i kind of regret it.
i wish i would do well for my common test,
the past 1 week was seriously like hell for me.
if i was just going to say i fell ill,
you reading this, will probably think it's just the same old thing.
yes, i fell sick once again.
let me see,
diarrhoea, nauseous, cough, running nose, eyes infection, migraine, eye bleeding, shoulder sprain & asthma attack.
i think that's enough to drive me crazy,
how was to study like this?
and it's not going away right now.
there's no relaxation after common tests,
when i have 3 projects on hand,
and it's only i am worrying.
nobody else cares.
do add that to my list of why i cant study properly,
my worries were at the back of my head at all times.
well, nobody came to my rescue.
the stress adds on, it doesnt go away......
Labels: school, stress
loved; 5:17 PM
